Part of what makes me who I am is the fact that I continually allow so many people into my life. I post here, I post everywhere, and I open my life for other people to read about me, if they so choose. Opening myself this way does not give anyone the right to pry into my life, does not give them the right to invade, attempt to pervade, make me feel uncomfortable for being so open. I take precautions, I hold myself dear and I am very careful because I have been burned, big time, in the past. I have had issues with this, not the funny “haha someone just yelled out ‘yo moonbunny’” issues, the “I’m scared and I need to call the cops” kind of issues, in the past. These are not fun nor funny issues. These terrify me to my core. I know I’ve been lucky and had close calls and somehow I wait for that luck to run out, so I am extra careful about this.
Yet I do let my guard down once in a while, and this is when I find the worst problems. This is when something happens and I pull myself back up and think, “What the hell was I thinking?” I don’t know what it is about me that attracts the crazies, that attracts the freaks, that attracts those people who think, “I know you… I know you and I want you to be mine.” I have no idea. I just know that I do attract the crazies.
I can’t change my life and quit posting: it is an inherent part of who I am, what I want to do with my life, and it makes me happy. One or two creeps- or ten or fifteen or twenty- are not going to make me stop doing something that makes me happy.
So to you, the asshole who prompted this posting, go fuck yourself. Go fuck yourself and die for all I give a shit. You want to fuck with me? I will fuck with you right back. You don’t know who you’re messing with, you don’t know me, you have no claim to me nor my life, and I’ve got enough experience with creeps like you that I know the end result. If you don’t step off now, which would be the smart thing to do, you will not walk out of this intact. You will come away even less of a person than you are now.
To anyone else who comes here and tries to mess with me, think twice. This goes for all of you.
Fuck the small voice. I’m done being the victim.
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